Every beginning has an ending. This story ended today.
The impact made by you before you fled my house still lingers around. Looking fine outside but extremely hurt within. Today was different from all other days. Today i knew it ended. Today i deleted every picture of you and i. Today i made a stand I'll be alone. Today marks a new beginning. Today ended 2 years 1 month and 19 days. Today the weather suit the atmosphere just right. Today i sit in my room silent. Today I'm confused whats going to happen next. Today i lost my closest friend. Today i became single again.
Goodbye and all the best to you. All the best for your A levels ahead. All the best with your family and friends. All the best with the future. All the best without me.
To me, i just have to embrace this silence. No more everyday ringing from my hand phone. No more night talks. No more you. I guess this is what's planned out for me.
Rush For Food : 0 ; 6:56 PM
Saturday, March 28, 2009
So I've decided to change for the better. Today i walked out of my house with much more confidence, with much more pride. Anyway, training at 8.15 this morning was quite awesome. Aside from waking up early in the morning and running to the bus stop to catch my lovely and inconsistent 855, training was some what fun. We did (fart-leg)<-- unsure of the spelling. 1km sprint and 500m slow row for 6 sets! Golly, it was so tiring!
Went down to Bedok to support those who were taking part in MR500. Congrats to all of them for making it to the finals! Awesome-ness! All the best for tomorrow's race!
Anyway, I'm so tired and drained from the whole day. Thus, an early night sleep.
Rush For Food : 0 ; 6:12 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009
I HAVE FUN
I don't know why this world is so judging. Why couldn't it be oh so blissful. Holding my true self in front of certain people because of the fear of being judged. Feeling low sometimes because people look down on you due to your academics. I don't know why, i don't know how come, but i do know that change is needed.
There are lots of wants and goals i want to obtain. Winning at least a medal for kayaking, obtaining an overall GPA score of 3.5 or above at the end of year 3... The list goes on. To obtain these goals and wants, the only solution is to work hard. Working hard even though it might not be very pleasing or fun or even boring when doing so. Because the process would never be easy, but the outcome would be wonderful or even mind blowing. However, the best feeling when you obtain that goal you set, is knowing that all that hard work paid of. All that hours spent suffering was worth it.
Then again, we don't always get what we want. Even when we work hard for it. Simply because, the world is an unfair place. Examples like working hard in a group to obtain an A grade for a project, but your group mates don't give a shit.
Why rent about this? I don't know... Just feel like doing so.
Random pic of the tee I'm wearing now.
Rush For Food : 0 ; 6:03 PM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
I have this excitement feeling within me. It's about meeting the juniors and potential kayakers for NYP. It's weird, but i guess the feeling of something new.
Rush For Food : 0 ; 10:03 PM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
NOT! The people are so damm rude. I couldn't believe that almost the whole of Hong Kong was filled with loud and rude people.
Incident 1: We were looking for a bus to the hills to check out some temple, and we asked this other bus driver where the bus was. He spoke in his own language and we couldn't catch what he was saying. He was so impatient and started raising his voice in English telling us. I mean, if you knew English in the first place, goodness, just tell us in English! Next, he didn't have to raise his voice at all. Dumb ass.
Incident 2: My dad was going to pay off the bill for dinner. So he asked the cashier for the amount. My dad couldn't catch what the guy was saying the first time, and when he asked again for clarification, he shouted at my dad telling him the amount.
Sigh, the trip would have been so much better if the people were a tad nicer. Other than that, i guess the trip was quite alright. Loved the food and the portion. Delicious and huge, that won my heart for sure! However, although i did some shopping, i was expecting much more. It wasn't as cheap as i thought it would be, the prices for some of the goods were either more expensive or the same price as Singapore. The variety was not really there too. But maybe, it could be because we don't know the place well. So who knows.
Anyway, got back last night. Super shagged with the whole flight and unpacking. Sadly, I'm suffering from a rash! Oh well, i just hope it'll go away soon.
Before i forget...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONRAD!
You're at last 18 and legal for clubbing, drinking, driving and smoking. Hopefully you won't smoke but all the above are alright to a certain extend. Enjoy your day! And I'll see you later at night.
Well, off to bed. Goodnight to all readers. Cheers!
Rush For Food : 0 ; 12:25 AM
Friday, March 6, 2009
First things first, Genting. I just loved the whole trip. The weather, the games, the bonding but most of all the experience of going to another country with your friends. It's so different when you go overseas with your family. With friends, you do whatever you liked, whenever! Not going to elaborate on the trip, but a word to sum the whole thing up, " AWESOME!" Pictures will be posted soon as this computer doesn't have the pictures.
Being back in Singapore has also been some what fun. Training with my friends, swimming and even watching movies has made my holiday a tad better. Today's gymming session with Conrad was fun, although it was more of a catch up session. It's just fun to chill out with buddies and getting updated about their lives. Wish this feeling doesn't end, but all good stories have to come to an end some time or another.
Pondering on an issue, i wonder if i really am who i am in front of people. Do I hold back just to impress or do I hold back so people would not find me an irritant? All these just keep running through my mind tonight. Only a few people know who i really am and how I really act. I'll have to admit, I'm a very high person who loves keeping myself busy with things to do. Therefore, if there is just nothing to do, I'll tend to do things that gets attention or makes myself happy. But maybe, i should just stop this childishness and be more matured? I don't know... It just seems that I'm hiding behind a mask.
Rush For Food : 0 ; 11:00 PM